"I recently discovered Aha! Parenting and am trying hard to change things at our house, but my kids seem to be acting out more. So I still lose it. And I feel so guilty about the past. What am I doing wrong?"
"For me, this type of parenting is a daily choice. Every morning I have to make the commitment not to yell, to stay calm, to chose love. And there is something very empowering about that. I apologize to my kids when I make mistakes and slip - I see that when they accept my apology, they feel empowerment and generosity of spirit. This influences their behavior with each other - there are more kind words and gestures, more "I'm sorry" and more "Don't worry, I know it wasn't your fault" that they extend to each other, than before. There are days when things are a big struggle, but I really feel that something is changing deep within our hearts AND I feel us grow closer together when we choose love, and when in the middle of a tantrum I hug my child and genuinely tell him that I hear his pain and that I'll help him work through it."
Shifting your parenting approach is a big transition, and you can expect some bumps as you and your child learn new patterns of relating. It doesn't
mean that you're doing anything wrong. In fact, what's happening is that you're healing old hurt feelings so they stop driving new bad behavior. When
your child acts out, he's showing you feelings from the past, from those times when you yelled or punished, and he felt so alone and misunderstood.
It takes extra compassion from you, but your empathic response will heal those hurts so you can all move on.
So ditch that guilt -- you're paying the price, after all, and making amends now, by helping your child through all those old hurt feelings. Besides,
feeling bad doesn't help you act "good," any more than it helps your child. Here's your plan. Take it step by step.
1. Start with yourself. The "peace" in peaceful parenting comes from you. Specifically, from your commitment to regulate your own
emotions. That means that when you feel upset, you stop, drop your agenda (temporarily), and breathe. You notice the sensations in your body, which
helps you be more present, so you don't get hijacked by anger. You refuse to act on that urgent "fight or flight" feeling that makes your child look
like the enemy. Whenever possible, you delay taking action until you feel more calm.
This takes practice -- both in the moment with your child, and in general, as you become more aware of your own thoughts and emotions. It's not easy. In
fact, it's really, really, hard. Every time you do this, though, you're building gray matter in your brain, which develops impulse control. And you're
excavating those triggers, so you don't get upset so often. The result? More happiness, more empathy, more peace. Less drama. (And you're becoming
a better role model for your child.)
2. Focus on Connecting. Positive parenting doesn't work without connection, because you squander your only leverage and have to resort
to threats (which destroy trust and start your child acting out again.) So before you change anything else with your child, start building up your
bond. Otherwise, you'll drop your punishments, but your child still won't feel motivated to "do right" and you'll just see more testing behavior. Start
spending at least 15 minutes connecting one-on-one with each child daily, just following his lead and pouring your love into him. You'll
be amazed at the difference in the way he responds to your requests.
3. Explain what's happening. Once you see more connection and cooperation, initiate a discussion. "You know how I used to yell at you and send you to your room when you broke the rules? Have you noticed that I've been yelling a lot less? I'm so sorry that I've gotten into a bad habit of yelling so much. I love you so much, and I know you try hard. You don't deserve to be yelled at, no matter what. When you're upset, I want to help you with those feelings and with whatever problem you're having. I think you'll learn more from cleaning up your messes than from being punished, don't you? Let's work together to solve the problems that come up, okay?"
4. Ask for cooperation. "We still have all the same rules. Our most important rule is that in this house we treat each other with kindness. I'm going to work very hard not to yell at you, and to really listen and be kind. Do you think you can work on this rule, too, and be kind to your sister?"
(You can count on your child losing control sometimes and breaking the kindness rule. Resist using that to justify your own yelling -- you're the role
model, after all.)
5. Offer Support and Model Win-Win Solutions. "I know your little sister gets on your nerves sometimes, and she always wants to play with your things. That's really annoying to you. You deserve to be able to keep your treasures safe. But it isn't okay to yell at your sister or hit her. Why don't we work together to find a safe place for your treasures where your sister can't get at them? And if you start getting annoyed at her, what can you do instead of yelling?"
6. Keep setting limits. You become more flexible as you see it from your child's point of view more often, and that's a good thing. But
you'll still need to set plenty of limits. The key is to set the limit BEFORE you get angry, while you still have a sense of humor and can empathize
with her perspective. "You wish you never had to stop playing and get ready for bed, don't you? I bet when you grow up, you'll play all night every night, won't you?! And right now, it's time for your bath." Acknowledging her perspective is what helps a child cooperate with us.
7. Expect emotions. When children have been punished, they've learned that those big emotions that drove them to misbehave get them into
trouble, so they try to stuff those "bad" feelings down. That doesn't work, of course. The jealousy, frustration and need are still there in your child's
emotional backpack, popping out at the slightest provocation. The only reason your child keeps them under wraps is because she's afraid. So once you
stop punishing, those emotions are bound to bubble up to get healed.
Acting out is not a personal challenge to you. When your child "acts out" she is acting out feelings that she can't express in words. Like "All those times you yelled at me, and I was so scared...I acted like I didn't care, but I was terrified inside....That fear is still inside me and it eats away at me and feels awful....So I lash out to keep those feelings down." No
child could tell you that, so she acts out. Train yourself to see misbehavior as a cry for help. Emotions are never the problem; humans will always
have big emotions. And, of course, that doesn't give her license to hurt anyone else. The key is to help your child work through the hurts and fears
that are driving her anger, so they no longer drive her behavior.
How do you help your child with those emotions? Connection, laughter and tears. For more guidance on how to do this: Preventive Maintenance.
8. Create Safety. When your child shows you her upsets, stay calm. Don't take it personally. The more you stay compassionate
and accepting, the more she'll feel safe enough to show you the woundedness behind her anger. (Anger is just the body's fight response to those
threatening feelings.) Expressing those tears and fears is healing. Once she shares them with you -- and she doesn't even need to know what they're
about, or to use words -- those feelings will evaporate, and she won't need that chip on her shoulder to protect herself.
If she's stuck in anger, create more safety by being as compassionate as you can about what's upsetting her. If that isn't enough to help her cry, and
she stays angry, it's a sign that she needs more daily empathy, and more daily laughing with you. Both build trust.
9. Help your child make sense of his experience with a story. "When you were little, I was having a hard time...I yelled a lot...I didn't know what else to do...That frightened you....So you got very very mad sometimes...Nowadays I work really hard to be kind, and not to yell....You don't get so frightened....And you are learning better ways to show me when you are scared or mad.....We work together to solve problems in our family.....Everyone gets upset sometimes....We try to listen to each other and be kind....Then we always repair things between us....There is always more love." All
children benefit from using words and stories to understand their emotional life. Just be careful to empathize, not analyze -- so he feels understood,
not invaded or lectured.
10. Teach reparations. If you've been punishing, you'll feel unfinished if your child breaks a rule and you don't punish him. Train
yourself to think in terms of repair, instead. So after everyone has calmed down and is feeling reconnected, have a private discussion with your
child about what happened. Listen to his perspective and empathize. "You were pretty mad when he did that...I hear you."
Once he's past his upset, point out the damage. Be careful not to shame or blame. "When you said that to your brother, it really hurt his feelings....I wonder if it made him not feel as close to you." Ask
your child if there is anything he can do to repair the damage. "I wonder what you could you do to repair things with your brother?"
Resist the urge to punish or force an apology. Instead, empower your child to see that he can repair his mistakes. "You know we always clean up our own messes, and this is just a different kind of mess, like spilled milk....I know you'll think of just the right thing to make things better with your brother....I can't wait to see what it is." Just
as with matter-of-factly cleaning up the spilled milk, the process of cleaning up his messes will teach him that he doesn't want to cause those
hurts to begin with. Just remember that this isn't a punishment. It's his choice. If he resists, that means that he needs more help resolving his upset
before he can move on to healing.
11. Model apologies. Don't force your child to apologize, because it leads to resentment. But if you model apology yourself,
your child will learn to follow your example. When something goes wrong, take as much responsibility as you can to model how to step up and take responsibility. "I see two upset kids...I'm so sorry I wasn't here to help you work this out before you both got so upset and started hitting...and then I got worried someone was getting hurt, so I started yelling, too...I'm so sorry....Let's all try a do-over.....I know you don't want to hit each other, hitting hurts...And I hear how mad you are....Let's start over so you can tell each other what you need without attacking each other."
Notice there is no blame or shame here, which makes it easier for everyone involved to consider how they might have contributed to the problem, and
to acknowledge that.
12. Expect setbacks. You're human, so you aren't perfect. The secret of making this transition is having compassion for yourself,
just as you do for your child. Expect to make mistakes. Expect some days to be a huge struggle. Parenting is hard, and this kind of parenting is even
harder when you start. But it gets easier. And even while it's hard, you're healing your child's old wounds--and your own--so you'll feel the difference.
Quite simply, there's less drama and more love.
You're on a path now that leads to a happier, more peaceful family. Two steps forward, one step back still gets you where you want to go. Soon you'll
find yourself in a whole new landscape. Enjoy the journey.