"After hearing you speak, I decided never to yell at my kids again. I want to be a good role model. But only 24 hours later, I completely lost it and found myself screaming like a crazy woman."
Are you noticing how hard it is to regulate your own emotions? Join the club! So for all of us today, a reminder about losing it.
When you lose it, Use it! Set a clear intention to make some changes, and use the incident as your motivation to follow through. That way, losing it will have been worth it, as a spur to get yourself back on track. It won't help to beat up on yourself. What helps is to notice what kind of support would help you stay more calm and patient, and to give yourself that support.
We don't have to be perfect parents. Really. We just have to seize those opportunities to realize when we're off-course, and find ways to start moving in the right direction.
Children are resilient, and they don't need perfection from parents. What they do need is a parent who models how to take responsibility and make repairs. A parent who apologizes and reconnects when things go wrong -- as they inevitably do sometimes in human relationships.
So let go of that heavy baggage of expecting yourself to be perfect. You never will be, but you're more than enough, just the way you are. You're only expected to keep growing. Parenting is a journey, not a destination.
And what should you do when you lose it? Here's your game plan.
1. Commit to NOT TAKING ACTION while angry.
When you notice that you're getting upset, that's your red flag reminder to Stop, Drop (your agenda, just temporarily), and Breathe so you have a choice about whether to get hijacked by your anger.
2. Remind yourself to see the situation from your child's point of view.
When our children get upset or act out, it often triggers us into fight or flight, which is why we start acting like they're the enemy. But they're not the enemy, and it isn't an emergency.
We're all sure we're "right" when we're angry, but there's always another way to look at things. Nobody has to be wrong.
3. Restore calm and safety.
Take a few deep breaths. Switch gears emotionally by finding a more positive thought. Maybe: "This isn't an emergency... He's acting like a child because he is a child... She's showing me she's upset and needs my help."
Then, if you're calm enough, reconnect with your child and try a "Do Over." If you can acknowledge your child's feelings, it opens the door to reconnecting. "Oh, Sweetie, we are both so upset. I guess you were hoping that...."
Empathize with why they're upset. Set what ever limit you need to. Modulate your tone and keep breathing. Remember, anger doesn't dissipate until it feels heard. So listen and try to understand.
Not calm enough to engage constructively? Walk away if you need to. I know you want to set your child straight right this minute, but you'll do a better job once you calm down. She's not going anywhere. You know where she lives.
4. Always apologize after you lose it.
Remember that you're role-modeling, both when you yell and when you apologize. Just say "I had such a hard day, and I couldn't deal with one more thing going wrong. So I yelled at you. But that's no excuse. No one deserves to be yelled at, ever. Let's try a do-over."
Resist the natural impulse to blame it on your child by saying that if they would just act right, you wouldn't yell. It's always your responsibility if you yell, and no child (or adult) ever deserves to get yelled at. See this article for more tips on when and how to apologize.
5. Avoid a Repeat.
Later, ask yourself, "What's one thing I can do so I don't lose it next time?"
- Can you reduce the amount of stress in your life by paring back so you aren't always rushing?
- Do you need more sleep? Make a plan. (No, you can't control how often your kids wake up, but you CAN control what time you go to bed.)
- Is there a certain time of day when everything falls apart? How can you give yourself and your child more support at that time of day?
- If you notice that you sound like your parents when you start yelling, can you do some healing? If you need to, get some support -- take a parenting class, get a good parenting book, join a supportive forum, see a counselor.
- Are you doing preventive maintenance with your child, so that he or she is less provocative? You'll find these strategies also help you feel closer to your child, so you're more able to see things from her perspective.
- When you start to threaten your child with punishments, can you notice that it's coming from your own sense of helplessness? Use that as a reminder to take a deep breath and calm yourself down. You'll intervene so much better from a calm state.
- If you want to stop yelling, but you're finding it tough, give yourself a break -- It IS tough! But it's also possible, so give yourself better support, in the form of a star chart. Your kids give you stars for every morning or afternoon you don't yell. Every week that's better than the week before is worth celebrating. Here's your 10 Step Plan to stop yelling.
Did you find one thing you can do to support yourself so you can regulate better when you start to get upset? Commit to doing that one thing, starting today.
And, of course, forgive yourself. This parenting gig is hard, and no one is perfect. But every time you calm yourself instead of acting your upset out onto your child, you're rewiring your brain, so it gets easier to regulate yourself the next time. Over time, you'll see that as you change, your child changes. And you'll find your whole family living with a lot less drama -- and a lot more love.